Honestly, it's over
The end of the beginning or the start of the end
It's like a track field, imagine running around the track
Over and over, knowing there isn’t an end unless you leave it

Love.
They call it an emotional feeling that we as humans can’t fight the urge
We feel it when seeing our favorite things
But love is more prominent in people.
Humans develop love for each other because it's how we are programmed.
That's the way it's supposed to be…
We can’t pretend we love people because love is inherent within us.
But I pretend every night.
I pretend I love you because I know I will never find anything like this
I pretend I need you because without you, I feel nothing..
I pretend to want you because I'm scared that it will be over..
Knowing that our relationship is over will forever make me want to keep pretending.
Doubts eat me alive when I think about pretending to be in love with you
I pretend that your love is enough for me
It’s the best thing I’ll get for a while
The best thing I’ll get for the time being…
But I’d rather know that I'm not in love than pretend I am

Damn
Life has me feeling like a four-letter word
Damn
Life has taken a mental toll on me
Damn
Life has me not being able to get over you
Damn
Life has me expecting and anticipating a message or any form of contact from you.
Damn
Life has me wanting to create a requiem for you
In the Roman Catholic Church, a requiem is a piece of music used to comfort the souls of the deceased.
What do this and you have in common?
I want to write something that can put my soul to rest from you
I want to write something to think, maybe you would hear
Maybe for you to care
Damn
Life has me feeling like a four-letter word
Damn
Life has me feeling like I’m in love

I am writing this on this date because it made me realize my feelings for you. I wish you could text, call, or just communicate with me. I hate that I care so much for others who don’t feel the same. I hate that I care so much about you. Wishing you could maybe text, call, or just communicate with me.

Did I lose you when I came off as energetic?
Did I lose you when I replied to your messages like I had nothing else better to do?
Did I lose you when I answered your messages back with paragraphs and paragraphs about nonsense?
Not such nonsense to me, but I just enjoy talking to you
Did I lose you when I asked if you were interested in me because it felt like I was the only one keeping the conversation going?
Did I lose you when I asked, “Did I mess up things” when you weren’t?
Did I lose you when I would ask to call you because I missed being in your presence?
Did I lose you when I asked mutuals to ask if you were even into me?
Did I lose you by me cracking jokes about things I never knew you were uncomfortable about, but hell, Chloe didn’t know.
She never knows anything.
She overthinks the consequences of her actions every time she talks, texts, hell, even thinks about you.
When communicating with you, she ends up losing herself because she becomes more attached to you.
Like, she is using some type of drug.
She will eventually end up crying over you and wishing you had never treated her that way.
Did I lose you, or did I lose myself?

Our memories fade away like a supercut.
All our messages, calls, and all the thoughts we shared cut into the void.
My mind goes back to when I sent our first message
When I shared our deepest thoughts.
When I talked to our friends about each other.
When I talked to them for hours.
It slowly goes downhill the more we go down our memories
Maybe we don’t need to go down memory lane.
Yeah no
Let's focus on the present and how we are going to make this cut into a scar.
A scar that will heal and will forever be on our bodies
Our memories won’t fade.
It will just remain in our minds for the time being.

Expanding your thoughts is needed when creating something as beautiful as you

Every conversations, you're at the end of it
Every joke, you’re laughing at it
Every call, you're always mentioned
Everyday, Everything, Everywhere, all at once
Everyday you seem to full me with delight
Everyday is like a fever dream with you
Everyday with you is never something I regret
Everything you do makes me happy
Everything you say stays in one ear and never goes out the other
Everything you do never leaves me with despair
Every move you make overwhelms me with joy
Every sound you make, encourages me to keep going
Everytime you think of me, I hope you keep me in your mind everywhere.
Everyday, Everything, Everywhere, all at once